When we arrived home from Coop's pacemaker surgery, Liam and Grace met us at the door for hugs and excited hellos. They were SO happy to see us and their big/little brother. :)
Gracie is a veteran of this type of thing. I know she worries, but she also trusts us to always tell her the truth. And when we tell her this is a small surgery and Coop will do great and be home quick, she seems to relax a bit and go about her day.
To Liam this is new. Coop's last 'big' surgery was before he was born. So Liam was full of questions. Worried about his big brother. Wondering how they got his pacemaker in and out. Asking us why Cooper's heart needs a battery and if his will when he gets big too. And curious to see Coop's owie.
Later that day Liam wandered into our bedroom to climb up in bed with Coop. And all on his own he pulled up his pants leg to show Coop his scar on his knee. To tell Coop all about how he fell on the driveway. That he had a band-aid too. That it hurt, but soon it was all better and it didn't hurt anymore. And that Coop's owie would feel better soon too. And even though Cooper pretended to not listen, Liam knew he was. Later in the day Liam quietly held Coop's hand while I tried to talk him into taking his meds. And his excited, quiet, I-don't-dare-move-a-muscle smile when Coop threw his arm over Liam's shoulder for a squeeze... Right now, that is enough for him. He is helping his big brother through his pain the best way he knows how, and my own heart explodes with love for his little 4-year-old sweetness.
I'm not sure why Cooper has gone through so many trials in his little life. Why he has endured so many painful and scary things. But I do know there are good things that come from even the hardest days. How we are reminded to be thankful for what we have. To be empathetic to others. And how having someone in our life to care for with extra special needs, makes us extra special people. Not in a 'we are better than everyone' kind of way. But in a 'our own lives are enriched and enlarged' kind of way.
We would take away Coop's Crohn's disease and heart issues in a [pacemaker generated] heartbeat. But because we can't, we will love and pray him through it. And continue to count our blessings.
Thank you for praying our little Coop through this latest hurdle with us. We are so happy to be home again. With a brand new pacemaker that will keep Coop's sweet heart ticking for many many more years.